Zoe Zombie

My current craziness

i have grown to despise this flag – it’s a blanket of racism rather than a symbol of a nation united.

i hate seeing the flag displayed so arrogantly on vehicles.

i would prefer to see a big flag on someone’s front lawn. this says “this is my home and i am proud of it.”

flags on cars says “i’m australian, we live in australia, speak english, if you don’t like it – get out.”

i despise emails gloating about the free country we live in, whilst stating “if you don’t speak english, get out”. it is far too in-your-face.

i despise those fuck wits in sydney, using the name of our country and using our flag to terrorise people who have as much right to be here as they do.

how long will it be until our flag becomes an official symbol of racism and prejudice.

What the fuck is wrong with me today? And yesterday? And, if my memory goes back that far, the day before? It’s like all of a sudden, death metal is just pissing me off.

What an odd thing to realise. It even makes me feel just that tad bit dirty. Like a dirty traitor. Seriously, what the fuck? Yes, WHAT. THE. FUCK. Why today (and the day before and possibly the day before)? Maybe I’m just fucking sick of it at the moment. But then, that is a scary thing to realise – and here is why.

I realise that I’m probably going to offend a whole bunch of people but I don’t really care because, even though I try to believe, I am proved wrong every time. I don’t like anything but metal, and other than that – the good old pop, rap and hip hop stuff from the 80s, disco (don’t fucken ask me why), folk, rock, prog, psychadelic, funk etc from the 50s-80s.

Everything on the radio fucking sucks. This is why I have stopped listening to the radio all together (although I did listen to Indie 103 online when I had nothing else. Loved it. RIP Indie). All that dance/electronic/whatever sucks. New rock shit sucks. Rolling Stone sucks. Even fucking Metal Hammer sucks. Radio stations suck. Too many dance acts in Perth suck. Too many people who like dance music – it’s too easy! Come on, there has to be something more to you than that?!

I like Metal. It makes me think about things, it allows me live vicariously through stories etc that other shit can’t do. It’s awesome, it’s exilerating. It’s blunt, it opens my eyes. If I want to listen to shit where I don’t have to think, I will listen to shit like Ratt, or Motley Crue or Public Enemy… even the fucking Bee Gees! That shit was Boss. No matter how bad, it was still a good song – interesting, melodic, NOT trash.

Completely my opinion of course, but I hate the fact that people who like all this accessible music get the run of the yard. I’m fucking sick of seeing electronic music festivals. I think it’s retarded that these people impose their shit on everyone else and think metalheads like myself are just a lost cause. We’re your only fucking hope.

This is why I am scared that death metal is pissing me off today – and now I just made myself run right back into its morbid arms.